June 24, 2007 - Obsessing

lately, i've been obessing about losing weight and how i look in general. it seems that all the woman i talk to are going through this right now. after looking at some recent photos, and trying on clothes the other day, i need to make a change as soon as possible as i am completely disgusted. it's getting started that is hard and intimidating. i look at photos from when i was practicing 6 days a week and i looked so healthy, happy, clear - just looked alive if that makes any sense. when i started yoga, it was a fluke that it was ashtanga, and i fell in love with it. totally transformed my life in a positive way. i stopped being consistent when my mom got sick and never got back into it even after she died. i don't understand why it's so dificult for me to go back to something that was so healing....so my goal is to get back into it while i am in london, new environment, less distractions (really hard to be in downward facing dog when an actual dog is jumping on you and kissing you)